Monday, April 19, 2010

Watching the clock

Normally, I'm not a clock watcher. In fact, I make it my business to be extremely non time conscious. Watching the clock makes me nervous. It makes me bouncy-And we all know I'm bouncy enough already.
My habit of not paying attention to the time drove Chris nuts. When we were dating I'd text him and say "I'll be there in 15 minutes" which really meant "I'll be there in 30 minutes. but don't hold your breath" :)

However, Motherhood has truly turned me into a time watching nut.
At 6:30pm on March 14th my doctor called to tell us we were having the baby early. I watched the minutes tick by on the long hand of the hospital clock until 7:11pm when I was wheeled into the hallway. At 7:52pm Benny was born. I couldn't see the clock, and they wouldn't let me bring in my blackberry (The nerve!) but Chris assures me it was 7:52pm.

Once I was released from the hospital I started obsessively watching the time.
"8am, pump for 20 minutes. Pump again at 10am. It takes 45 minutes to get up to Baptist East. Leave the house at 10:15am. Get there at 11am. Scrub up and be ready for Ben's feeding and diaper changing starting at 11:30am. Leave the NICU by 2:25 for shift change at 2:30. When did I pump last? Did I eat lunch? What time should I tell Momma to drive me home to cook dinner?"

I had no CLUE to expect such clock watching. But once Benny got home it only got worse.
The first week I am pretty sure I spent entirely sitting/sleeping on the loveseat with the baby watching the big brown clock Chris's parents got us that we hung across the room.
"Feed and change Benny's diaper every four hours. Pump every two hours. Repeat. When is he supposed to sleep? When do I sleep? Is it ok if I take a shower every other day?Do I stink? If Chris gets home at 5:15 what time do I need to make the bed and clean the kitchen?"

I have these really funny memories of Momma ordering all us Flanagan kids at 4:30pm every day "Ok! Let's clean up before Daddy gets home!!" And now it makes total sense. My Momma was a clock watcher too.

The clock watching has gotten much better now that I let Benny sleep and wake up when he's hungry during the day and at night. Sometimes he sleeps 5-6 hours. It's amazing. We are blessed to have a precious healthy baby, all clock watching aside.

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